wooooo~
what a great way to spend christmas this yr!
Been busy with caroling but it was a happy thing to do! Come to think of it.. the carols are actually all Jesus' birthday songs!!!!

After the last performance at vivo ytd~









Aileen Bernice Aileen












Birdyyyyy~~~~









JinLian Aileen SuTing Bernice









Dennis~

Cai came as well! Thanks everyone~ =)











Me Bird and Cai at the end of the day~ Lovesss..~ It was great welcoming christmas day with both of them though i was in the toilet when the clock struck 12 hehehehe..









Heh!









Candlelight service~~ A sight to behold!









Jesus came on Christmas day to light up our souls
To give us visions and dreams

Amidst the fun, let's remember the reason for the season!
Merry Christmas~
=)

AHHHH...... Have been really occupied recently.. I long to have a day when I can just slack at the library with a good book.. Went carolling at Cheshire Home this afternoon, it's a place for the severely disabled.. Quite a good experience.. Weiying came to fetch me to her house for christmas party after that.. It was more like a N256 reunion haha.. Great company.. Gym tmr with cai and then gg to her hse to bake cookies haha.. cross fingers.. meeting da ren after that..

I seem to talk in point form.. Quite boring right.. haha. Anyway this is life after A level!!!! Totally filled with fun and friends!

Last saturday..









New cg.. W389












Lily and I =)









The colourful carol girls! At vivo!












Yuxuan and I with annabel~ Hehehe..

Next performances are on saturday 1230-1 and sunday 430-5
Wahah must keep promoting one... Come and watch hor!











And not forgetting min!!!! my good friend from jc~
She's into dancing.. Especially sexy dances wahhahaha..!
MIN! We must get a tan real soon ok!!!!!










and Cai me alice bird~ Fuhuaians reunion!
A BIT blur but nice try la wahahha..

Hope to see all of you soon!

What makes a good leader? Since the word 'good' is subjective in the first place, there are many definitions to that. In my opinion, a leader is a reflection of the conditions of his/her team. In other words, how well a team is doing ( both inwardly and outwardly) depends on the leader. A 'good' leader should create an 'environment' where members can fearlessly make mistakes and willingly learn from them. In the case where mistakes are unpardonable, creative juice runs dry.. And it's not due to members being dull but rather too afraid to think out of the box.
Too many a times, we see members doing things out of the fear of their leaders instead of doing them simply because they want to.. and it makes me wonder if this is 'heathly' cos in the long run, things may turn ugly..

A good leader doesn't have to make him/herself distinguish from the rest and be treated as the 'high and mighty' cos members will naturally respect the leader and carry out his/her instructions cheerfully without viewing them as commandments.. However there is only so much a leader can do, to be able make a big significance, it largely depends on the combined contribution of individuals. Thus, it's not always 'I want it my way' but rather 'What can I do for them'..

I have many leaders in my life, be it in school or church. But one leader stands out most distinguishly and that is JinLian. And while writing the above I was actually referring to her.. (I mean all the good points la. Haha) She's not authoritative, yet people under her will do what she says without being compelled to do so.. She is strict when required to but her members know that she does that only because she wants us to learn.. She doesn't mind that we tease her or 'play' with her and that will make us feel at ease with her..

So in my opinion, she's my definition of a good leader. =)

I love holidays~~
Like totally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wahahahaha..
Have been going out everyday after my trip.. Money's running out though haha.. Cai's helping me ask for a job at Planet Fitness (frontdesk only la..) Pay's not bad.. And you get to see good looking people everyday waha... Went out with her and xiao li ytd to sentosa!!! Wanted to revive my white skin but the sun wasn't out!!! Ended up playing with DaRen and his group of army guys.. HAHA.. A bit shy also but enjoyed myself greatly..

Had to leave early to chiong for carol prac.. It was full-dressed rehearsal ytd and everyone looked awesome! (Check out the ladies' attire! waha) The whole place was filled with joy with our colourful tops, happy carols and smiles! Will be performing this sat 9:00-9:30pm and 10:00 to 10:30pm at vivo (near Food Republic).. AAHHHHHHH..... Like totally excited! =)!

*A time to sow.. A time to reap.. A time for new year.. And a time for Christmas!*

What a day~ Went for choir prac in the morning and we practiced for hourss.. Full-dressed rehearsal's on wednesday.. I think our 'uniform' is really cool.. (but mafan to get)

Met steph at jp for dinner and she actually did a $60 pedicure.. Goodness la but it's nice la.. Came to my house after that to borrow my slippers hahaha.. then she sort of meddled with my piano and in the end decided to worship God together!! It was such an experience... We were singing and praying and God's presence was so strong I cried~ That was truly a precious moment I will never forget.. Awesome.. What an encouragement for me..









(Oh my baby pianoo~~ )
Exactly as it was.. I sat beside her..

haha! ok now it sounds like a really sweet and unforgettable date.. Wahah not les hor.

*Jesus is the reason for the season!*

Home sweet home~~~
Sg is still the best!!!

It was more of an enriching trip for me where I learnt about their culture and way of living than a shopping trip where I learnt nothing..
So it's always good to travel with a local.. hehe..










On our way there.. nice clear blue sky!









View outside the hotel window.. very HK.. Most of the buildings are real slim and tall and condensed..









Lots of hp! They actually have a lot of models which Sg doesn't have..









Typical teabreak.. At ANY time of the day you can find food places with a lot of people..









Dinner with Jeff's family.. Forever a lot of food! Every meal!










That Goofy! He accidentally hit my head before this! WAhaha..









Very act right.. Wahah..









During peak hour at a train station.. The people there are more social-friendly. They actually queue up to go into the train.. Sponteneously..









A typical meal with his family at a resturant.. They ordered a lot everytime.. The brown thing is pigeon! And I actually ate snake meat unknowingly! WAhah..










At Victoria's Peak over looking the HK district... Coldness and pretty romantic at night.. Too bad no bf.. HAHA..










Rio Hotel at Macau.. Jeff's Godmum sponsored the 2 days at Macau for all of us.. =)









The remains of a bombed church in Macau..









Food again!









At a tower overlooking Macau












Transparent floor! *shudder*









Beautiful sunset outside the plane's window.. A sight to behold! There was a big lump of dark clouds nearby with lightning inside! (ok i so donno the right terms to use for weather and stuff)
And it's back to sweet singapore.. reuniting with friends and family.. (erm.. it was only 10 days la. haha)

Ah, that's the bird's eye view of my trip.. Have been out catching up with friends and carol songs.. So far behind.. Btw the choir will be performing at vivo on the 16th,23rd and 24th.. Come down and watch! Hehe..

AHh.. at jeff's friend's hse now.. and they are all asleep already　it's like a tour + eating + shopping marathon.. today we were too tired to go ocean park so postponed it to monday.. gg macau later for 2 days.. (fully sponsored by jeff's godmum) 4 more days to go and i'm pok already hahaha... Weather's freezing today but shiok la. Ate a lot for dinner again.. and am joining cai for her 'abortion' programme when i reach sg.. (abort the fats)

I guess absence really does make a heart grow fonder.. argh....... so silly...　ok ok gg to sleep now..

home + friends + love sick...

YOYOYO! I'm at HK's Hard Rock Cafe now so am able to access to the internet.. Anyway it's been great so far! Went to disneyland ytd and gg to ocean park tmr wahahha.. One thing abt hk.. the people eat A LOT.. i mean A LOT A LOT! and quite fast also.. Culture shock.. wahha.. okok gg back for my drink.. this is so random wahah..
missing home and friends!

OK! I FINALLY felt it.. The kind of freedom after exams! The whole of ytd I didn't quite feel anything actually haha.. But somehow I still woke up at 930! Haven't been totally 'cleansed' yet.. HAHA.. I'm so excited to meet bird and pink at vivo later (for some more cleansing wahaha) We had such a brief moment together ytd.. Hardly enough man.. And Jeff called just now about the hk trip AHHHHH it's gonna be exciting!! I found out that we'll be going macau as well.. AH AH AH... YESSSSSSSSSSS...... Ok meeting Bird soon! =)!

One thing that intrigues me: Why do people fear growing 'old'? (or rather growing UP) It's almost always the case where people (esp. the females) go kinda hysterical knowing that they will be hitting the '2', '3'..'4' soon.. If there's no running away from that fact or from a natural, common sense process that as time goes by we will eventually grow OLD, then why not embrace that fact?

Every phase of life is a different and unique experience.. And the fact that we will have more responsibilities and bigger challenges means that we should already have the capacity to contain and deal with them.. This can be so when we use our experiences, good and bad, in our previous phases of life wisely to equip and prepare us for the next phase.. Isn't that a happy knowlegde that we have grown bigger on the inside? So why look back enviously at our 'smaller' state? In fact, they should pale in comparison..

Yes teenage years may be free and reckless, we did whatever we felt like doing at the spur of moment... We became rebellious towards our parents because we wanted things done one way: OUR way. We sulked and threw tantrums when we didn't get what we wanted. (at least that was for me, but i'm sure that doesn't rise any eyebrow) We were still trying to know ourselves.. The future ahead seemed like infinity where there were/are so many paths to take. Thank God for our rigid education system where we didn't quite have to rack our brains in deciding which direction to go.. You can say I was lazy to think, so I took the 'traditional route' and decided to decide LATER..

However, as much as I like my teenage years, I am very much looking forward to my 20s! Correct me if I'm wrong, I think a lot of people have this assumption/conclusion that teenage years are the most fun time of our life.. While it may be true, I also beg to differ. We travel in the direction of what we think of ourselves.. Unless you think that you become more boring when you grow older, then the above assumption/conclusion is totally true for you. But I'd like to challenge that statement, I wanna make every phase of my life the most fun! (Idealistic?) And when I grow old, I'd still want to have a little tinkle in my eyes.. I'm glad to be surrounded with friends who love life, I think they are the best gifts anyone can ever have..

Certainly, we will fall. But to be a conqueror and move on, we have to jump up again and face our fears head-on. Asa!!

Coooommmmeee whhhaaaattt maaayyyy~~~

errr.. Actually studying's pretty fun. Especially when accompanied with nice music like Piano Spa 2 or Class 95.. =) And after every exam, I would 'subconsciously' pamper myself by buying cds.. food.. wahaha.. Frequent breaks are a must as well and I jog at least twice a week and feel good all over after that. Haha..

Yesterday was great. I told God that I needed Him and His presence just fell.. He's guided me a lot thus far and I really don't know how I would do without Him.. He's helped me select topics to study and I really need that haha.. Like for GP, I only studied the day before and 'somehow' I kept reading on that one topic only and wrote down some nerdy statistics and some related nerdy words.. When I saw the exact question for essay, I teared slightly cos God's really awesome. So I regurgitated everything I wrote down.. Even words I have never used before.. And probably won't ever use it again.. Pure coincidence? I don't think so..

Haha loving this adventure with God! You'd never know what's up next but you are confident that He will provide. As always...

*9 more days muahahaha*

ok Nap time!

That's it!! The CHC philharmonic orchestra appeared again! And I told myself I wanna be part of them. Of so many instruments, I always only look at the cellos haha..~ That's it! I'm glad that finally someone proposed this idea cos I thot we'd never veer towards the classical arena.. phew~ YES YES! By hook or by crook, one day I'm gonna be inside!

See, I'm always fantasising.. Heh~ Especially so during exams period when my imagination just goes very very wild.. =) I can think of 101 things to do after exams! And it gets me really high. And thank you friends for your prayers and support, you make the A lvl a tad easier for me.. THANK YOU!! Ok 10 more days and THAT'S IT!!

So far I've been very blessed! Hehe, my dad has arranged for me to meet his mp friend so that he can find me a job after my exams.. and my mum just gave me her debit card for my hk trip! YES! HAha.. Awesome~ And this is only the beginning of Arise and Build! I haven't even started giving! See, indeed we can never outgive God. YESYES and more will come my way.. *rub hands*

*Be a giantslayer! Sha sha sha~~*

Today marks the end of my journey with N256.. It's kinda hard to digest that cos I really love that cg.. We cried buckets.










The girlss..









The guyss..









The 5 of us who are sent out! Yay yay, let's go make a difference..









Me and ser~ My first cg member! We were separated and then back again in n256! Now I'm leaving and who knows we'll be back in the same cg again~ hahah..









Some of the few remaining ones..



















AWww.. I really love them.. We've already planned to do so many things after my exams! But still can la. haha.. KTV!! YES! I'm actually learning some chinese songs now.. wahaha.. One month prep for that day! =)

So glad to be going through my teenage years with such lovelies.. Very very very glad to be surrounded with beautiful people~ And I know that friendships like that are for eternity! =)
But I also know that I'll be stepping on new grounds in the new cg.. Going to places I've never been and doing things I've never done before. For that I'm really excited! =) Thankfully I have weiwen with me~ Hehe.. Great. What a day!!

I know it's a tad too late wahaha.. But still I must say this..
Our class ended our last day of official lessons and lectures 2 fridays ago with a glorious end!
It was fun fUn FUN! We played played played.. It was madness la! I broke my own record that day.. Of playing captain's ball, volleyball and basketball all in a day! Love it love it..
Now I'm getting excited about the upcoming holiday!!!!! Very very very excited!! It's coming it's coming!! Yes!!!









Me and Yusu with ms ng's gifts haha~









Our class! With CT Sally Chua.. (I felt a burden on my shoulders) whaha..









With Azman~ Sleepy face in the morning...









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In the evening we returned for bbq!!













Xenia~ One thing I like about JJ.. we can dress down down down.... waha..









Presenting to you... the CUTEST DM ever! Also our maths teacher..











LOok!! We were in equilibrium! Wahah..



























Yay our prom tickets! =)









chang peng, kai liang, xiaolaoshu









Finale!!! hahah ~ (Seems like the world revolved around both of us! haha!)

Thank you 05s5 for precious moments like this..

Shocking statistic!!!
This is a survey done by Dove and they found out that only a pathetic 3% of the women in Singapore think that they are beautiful! Girls!!! WHY!! I think every woman is beautiful in her own ways.. EVERY.

Hey, I think this is a BIG problem la. Something must be wrong.. Cos everywhere I go I see pretty girls.. So I guess it's only a matter of self-confidence.. How much you love yourself. If you love yourself, you accept whatever imperfections you have.. You feel comfortable in your own skin.. And you understand that you have weaknesses.. As well as qualities. You focus on your qualities and make the best out of them. That makes you love yourself more cos you totally like being yourself!

Feeling fat? Know that our self-worth is not measured by the weighing machine. (I'm really good in consoling myself huh? Haha!) But really la, people can say all they want, at the end of the day the only thing that matters is what you think of yourself. So many people have commented about my weight... But you know how stubborn I can get sometimes? Cos when I reach home and I look into the mirror, I still like what I see. Haha! Ah, now you know why they say that "Love is blind."? Haha!

So girls!!! You are all beautiful ok? Heck what the guys say. If they don't bother to look deeper then don't bother about them as well. Muahaha.. Feeling feministic now huh. Haha nobody offended me la just really disturbed by that statistic..

*You make loving you so easy for me...*

Life should be like a kaleidoscope!
Always changing, yet staying vibrant and colourful! =)

Today it struck me that my college days are going to be gone forever...
2 more days of proper lessons + 2 weeks of study break + 3 weeks of A level exams and that close the chapter of education under the MOE. Kinda have mixed feelings though. But it means I'm moving up into another level and YES!!! There are so much more goodies await.. *rub hands together* It means that my dreams can start unfolding! And I'm so excited to see what's in store for me. Hehe.. Guess all these years of education is just a process where potential energy accumulates and upon releasing, it'll blow up the world in ways we can never imagine.

So guys, press on!

Pre-'war' is making me so self-centered! Don't like... Don't like to push everything else aside for that.. Especially my friends! =( But I can't afford not to focus.. (Girls! 23rd Nov you've got a date with me! I don't care I book you all first.. wo men bu jian bu san!)

Sometimes it seems like the 'right' one has come along... But yet deep inside you, in a corner of your heart you know he's not. Then it seems like WWIII has commenced between your heart and mind.. And if your mind is the weaker one, he's got you. Otherwise, your lethargic victorious mind stubbornises you...

Sometimes when a flame is still flickering, it doesn't take much to ignite it back.. And the more you want to blow it away, the bigger it becomes.. If you're smart enough, you'll extinguish it with water. However, it makes everything dull and boring.

Now I think I'm not smart enough..